There is no formula for inspiration- Robert Edmund Jones

We should not be taught to wait for inspiration...Action generates inspiration.  Inspiration seldom generates action - Frank Tibolt

The pause is as important as the note- Truman Fisher

Inspiration could be called inhaling the memory of an act never experienced- Ned Rorem

Creativity is allowing yourself to make mistakes. Art is deciding which ones to keep- Scott Adams




In other news, I'm incredibly happy.

Don't lock your car keys in the office when you are the last person out....

We go into first tech for Freud tomorrow.  It's my first real life design, and I am very disappointed in myself.  I don't feel like I am designing it, so much as just providing a service.  I feel like the waiter, when I should be the chef. In all reality, it is probably all my own doing, or ignorance that brought this upon me.  I don't feel involved in the creative process.
 I know... get involved.  I'm finding that to be much harder than I thought.  I don't feel welcome at rehearsals, and I don't feel like my opinion matters.  I feel very trampled on.  Even little things like where I set up my things, and the tech table, have been changed by someone that apparently has more authority than me. 

I think what is worrying me more than anything, is that I don't feel like I am creating theatre, or art.  My contributions to this show are not as I expected them to be. Or, more specifically, recognized as I feel they should be. I could understand if it was just a simple set up for a designer, but I am supposed to be cntributing artistically.   I guess I hoped to be more than just a waiter.


I want this to go well so that I don't convince myself that I will never get recognized, and just stay as a nobody my entire career.